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-Hank
Thursday, June 5, 2014
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
What am I Even Doing?
Lately, I don't even know what's happening. It is truly interesting to see how life works in the modern day. Often, I will wake up before class completely exhausted and wanting nothing more than to continue to sleep. Now this is certainly the fragment of being a teenager (I'm only a few short months away from 20... the adult-world is so close to grasp... very scary) and also a part of me being a college student, but in all honesty, I don't want to go to class because of my young adulthood tendencies, but because I don't want to go through my daily routine. I don't want to wake up, brush me teeth for one minute, put in my contacts, undress and put a towel on (all while being quiet in the dark so as to not wake up my slumbering roommate), take a shower, get dry, get dressed, and get on my way to class with only ten minutes before its beginning.
I have a schedule for every day. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Each day, I accomplish relatively the same thing, each day with its own unique changes here and there, though ultimately all the same. The sameness causes such a huge exhaustion throughout my body that causes me to just want to do nothing. Often, I find myself watching television for hours, or aimlessly doing nothing on my computer. I even catch myself sitting around my dorm room literally doing nothing. This is just depressing. I used to be so alive and full of energy. What happened exactly?
Routine can be a killer. It is a perceived necessity in the modern world. You must have your daily routine, otherwise you can't get your work done. If you can't get your work done, you cannot survive in the world. We are no longer animals in the wild. Our survival is no longer food, water, and shelter. Our survival is money, making money, and spending money. To get money, we must work. To work successfully, you must have a routine. Welcome to human survival in 2014. Wether you are in the business of exchanging numbers and papers, or the business of creating arts, we all have a routine. I've talked to plenty of people from the different spectrums of life who are around my age, and it is nearly unanimous: we all have a routine. Every day. Every. Single. Day.
So what happens when this routine is broken? Two life-changing events can occur. When a routine is broken, one will usually fall behind on their profession, become stressed, and work harder to catch up and to harden their routine. When you don't become a robot, you fall into the second event. You will fall behind on work, become stressed, and create something beautiful. Elaboration time. When I get out of college, I want to be a video game writer and a creative lead. While in college, I've fallen into my scheduled routine, and have had no time to think about my desired career (which is somewhat ironic with this being college and all). I'll be honest, I've missed class plenty of times, and plenty of times, Ive fallen into that first event of unadulterated stress.
A couple of weeks ago, however, I discovered that second event. It was a beautiful and sunny afternoon, around 1pm. I awoke to my roommate coming back from class. "Finally awake, I see", he said to me. I looked at my watch and notice I slept through my 9 am and my 10 pm. "Wonderful", I thought to myself. After the first horribly interesting events of my daily routine, I had a thought in my shower. "Why haven't I started work on any video game?" I wondered to myself as the hot water showered (get it?) my body. When I dressed myself, I sat at my computer, and I began work on my first video game. It was exhilarating! I was finally doing what I've wanted to do my entire life. A couple of weeks later, this game of mine is almost ready for release, and I could not be anymore excited.
This break of routine has taught me something. I learned that life should not be a monotonous wasteland of modern survival. No, it should what we want it to be. Do not misunderstand this. This does not by any means mean we should all stop doing whatever our work is, because then we will fail at our survival. What it means, though, is that we should not be afraid to break away from the daily doings of life every once in a while in order to follow our creative freedom, and to follow our creative needs. While I will begrudgingly agree that we need a routine to survive today, I strongly believe this routine should be universally agreed on to allow the animal in us to create something beautiful every now and then.
Stay awesome and beautiful.
I have a schedule for every day. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Each day, I accomplish relatively the same thing, each day with its own unique changes here and there, though ultimately all the same. The sameness causes such a huge exhaustion throughout my body that causes me to just want to do nothing. Often, I find myself watching television for hours, or aimlessly doing nothing on my computer. I even catch myself sitting around my dorm room literally doing nothing. This is just depressing. I used to be so alive and full of energy. What happened exactly?
Routine can be a killer. It is a perceived necessity in the modern world. You must have your daily routine, otherwise you can't get your work done. If you can't get your work done, you cannot survive in the world. We are no longer animals in the wild. Our survival is no longer food, water, and shelter. Our survival is money, making money, and spending money. To get money, we must work. To work successfully, you must have a routine. Welcome to human survival in 2014. Wether you are in the business of exchanging numbers and papers, or the business of creating arts, we all have a routine. I've talked to plenty of people from the different spectrums of life who are around my age, and it is nearly unanimous: we all have a routine. Every day. Every. Single. Day.
So what happens when this routine is broken? Two life-changing events can occur. When a routine is broken, one will usually fall behind on their profession, become stressed, and work harder to catch up and to harden their routine. When you don't become a robot, you fall into the second event. You will fall behind on work, become stressed, and create something beautiful. Elaboration time. When I get out of college, I want to be a video game writer and a creative lead. While in college, I've fallen into my scheduled routine, and have had no time to think about my desired career (which is somewhat ironic with this being college and all). I'll be honest, I've missed class plenty of times, and plenty of times, Ive fallen into that first event of unadulterated stress.
A couple of weeks ago, however, I discovered that second event. It was a beautiful and sunny afternoon, around 1pm. I awoke to my roommate coming back from class. "Finally awake, I see", he said to me. I looked at my watch and notice I slept through my 9 am and my 10 pm. "Wonderful", I thought to myself. After the first horribly interesting events of my daily routine, I had a thought in my shower. "Why haven't I started work on any video game?" I wondered to myself as the hot water showered (get it?) my body. When I dressed myself, I sat at my computer, and I began work on my first video game. It was exhilarating! I was finally doing what I've wanted to do my entire life. A couple of weeks later, this game of mine is almost ready for release, and I could not be anymore excited.
This break of routine has taught me something. I learned that life should not be a monotonous wasteland of modern survival. No, it should what we want it to be. Do not misunderstand this. This does not by any means mean we should all stop doing whatever our work is, because then we will fail at our survival. What it means, though, is that we should not be afraid to break away from the daily doings of life every once in a while in order to follow our creative freedom, and to follow our creative needs. While I will begrudgingly agree that we need a routine to survive today, I strongly believe this routine should be universally agreed on to allow the animal in us to create something beautiful every now and then.
Stay awesome and beautiful.
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
American Political Parties Seriously Need Reform
It's fairly obvious that in America, since it's beginning, there are two political parties that essentially run the country. There are the left-winged democrats (or liberals) and the right-winged republicans (or conservatives). These parties have been around since nearly the beginning of America, however, they were called other names. Point being, these are the political parties that run our country. Each of these groups have a particular and generally agreed upon ideas of how the government should be run, and how we should treat people those around us (in terms of rights). Generally, those who are liberal believe the government should be a larger part of the american life, and all people deserve equal rights. As a conservative, the beliefs are that the government should act as more of farther away friend who doesn't interfere often in the American life. Conservatives have also tended to not necessarily worry, so to speak, about the rights of all people. There are ideas from each of these political parties that I love, but I am not an Independent (because personally, I don't believe being an independent accomplishes much). My problem is when people ask me what my political party is.
Most people, when they ask what political party I am, expect me to say conservative or liberal, and have the idea that I believe in all of the ideas of one of those parties. My answer, as of lately, is that I am conservative in government and liberal in views. I think that the government is a fantastic, and extremely necessary, part of America, but I do not believe the government should be a part of our everyday lives. I also think that all humans deserve equal treatment (and I'm talking about whites, blacks, hispanics, asians, every race of person). What I don't like saying, though, is that "I am conservative in government and liberal in views" because for one thing, that's quite a mouthful, and for another thing, it usually requires further explanation. What I believe is that these two things, government and views, should be separated into two different identities. But that would probably never happen.
If this were to happen, then that would mean that, let's say, those who believe in large government would be called democrats (or liberals), and those who believed in small government would be called republicans (or conservatives). And that would be politics. That would be government. That's it. Now for those who believe in equal rights for all, would go under the name, for now we'll call Larries. Those who don't necessarily believe all races should follow the same laws would be called, let's say, Carls. So, in this world, if someone was asked about their political views, one could say, "Oh, I'm a Conservative and a Larry" or "I'm a Democrat, but a Carl." If this were to happen, a couple of things would change. The stigma put on current political parties that if one is a part of a political party, they believe a certain something about the rights of people. Next, it would be so much easier to organize exactly what kind of person our political leaders are. This would, in turn, make deciding who you want to vote for, for any political position much easier.
That's all for now, folks.
Most people, when they ask what political party I am, expect me to say conservative or liberal, and have the idea that I believe in all of the ideas of one of those parties. My answer, as of lately, is that I am conservative in government and liberal in views. I think that the government is a fantastic, and extremely necessary, part of America, but I do not believe the government should be a part of our everyday lives. I also think that all humans deserve equal treatment (and I'm talking about whites, blacks, hispanics, asians, every race of person). What I don't like saying, though, is that "I am conservative in government and liberal in views" because for one thing, that's quite a mouthful, and for another thing, it usually requires further explanation. What I believe is that these two things, government and views, should be separated into two different identities. But that would probably never happen.
If this were to happen, then that would mean that, let's say, those who believe in large government would be called democrats (or liberals), and those who believed in small government would be called republicans (or conservatives). And that would be politics. That would be government. That's it. Now for those who believe in equal rights for all, would go under the name, for now we'll call Larries. Those who don't necessarily believe all races should follow the same laws would be called, let's say, Carls. So, in this world, if someone was asked about their political views, one could say, "Oh, I'm a Conservative and a Larry" or "I'm a Democrat, but a Carl." If this were to happen, a couple of things would change. The stigma put on current political parties that if one is a part of a political party, they believe a certain something about the rights of people. Next, it would be so much easier to organize exactly what kind of person our political leaders are. This would, in turn, make deciding who you want to vote for, for any political position much easier.
That's all for now, folks.
Saturday, December 21, 2013
Where has Morality Gone?
You know, one thing I've noticed as I've grown older is the loss of simple morality in the people around me. I mean, I feel like the world, or at least the world I live in (America, hollah), is just completely sucked dry of people who are just generally trying to be good. Now, I'm not trying to criticize anyone specifically, nor am I trying to start some crazy war with anyone, it just feels like people don't seem to care anymore. For example, one very prevalent person in today's social media, of course, is Miley Cyrus (yes, I'm talking about her, deal with it). I mean her no disrespect, but it's hard to avoid it. She was a child television star and a huge influence on so many people in my generation. Now that she, and we, have grown up, she's completely gone out of control, becoming such a terrible influence. Twerking, smoking pot on live television, creating absolute whore-ish music videos (probably because her managers told her it was a good idea). Many people try to defend her by saying that she wants to be her own woman, and she is trying to show that she doesn't want that stereotype of being the sweet Hannah Montana girl. I get that. What I don't get it, is why she's the target issue. Her managers, her "friends", her parents, and pretty much everyone she associates with, eggs her on on this self-destruction and humiliation. The poor girl is being tossed around like a rag doll and given money and "fame" in return. Society is literally destroying all of her humanity. I feel terrible for her, and what I don't get is why no one seems to care. At all.
People in general just don't seem to care. I've never been one to go out, get messed up, party hardy till the break of dawny, or anything like that. I've always felt like I should try to be a good person in general and to try to stay away from being "wrong" (not to say that I'm perfect, because there are so many things that I've done that are just awful, I'm human). I just finished my first semester of college, and I've learned so much from it. I left my home, state, friends, and family, to go to a college seven hours away from my home. One of the reasons I left my home was because I felt that so many of the people around me just didn't really care about their futures. Well, in this completely new place, and state, I've noticed a lot of the same thing. There are so many people I've met who just don't care about being a good person or trying to be nice. I mean there are people I've run into who have tried to start fights with me for literally no reason at all. I've overheard conversations of men talking about women like they're just tools for guys. I've seen people literally hurt other people for what can't even be considered "reasons", their so stupid.
What I'm trying to get to is, I don't understand why people feel the need to be angry, or better yet, reluctant to be honest. Many people have told me on different occasions that they don't need to be moral because they don't have a religion. That is literally the most pathetic thing I've ever heard. You don't need to be religious to be a good person!! If the word "morality" really scares you that much, how about the word "helpful"? People seem to constantly be attacking others, fighting only for their selves and those in their little groups. Why in the world is it such a terrible thing to try and be a good person? I don't understand at all why being "good" has such a bad stigma attached to it. How can you honestly say you want to be a bad person? Why?! Why in the world do some people want to be bad people?! We live in a world with so much struggle in it, why add to that struggle? Now the people I am talking about, to be clear, are people who, socially and monetary class-wise, are pretty well-off. If money and social activity is not an issue for you, what possible right do you have to go out of your way to be a bad person? It makes absolutely no sense. People literally question me as to why I care so much about others being good people! I really don't know how to respond to something like that. Why do I wish all people were good people? Why is that a weird or bad thing to wish?! Yes, I do wish more people were more moral because that would make the world a better place!
I don't want to be thought of as a person who hates the world or anything, however. I know there are many good people out there. There are so many people who, everyday, do their absolute best to avoid anger and face their issues with the actual smart solution. These people go largely unnoticed though. This makes sense, however. A person who sincerely wants to be good, would never gloat about that, and shouldn't. It just seems to me, that those who purposefully don't want to care about the people around them, or life in general, actually go out of their way to make the local word around them harder. I just don't see the need or desire to try and hurt people. It's just ridiculous.
People in general just don't seem to care. I've never been one to go out, get messed up, party hardy till the break of dawny, or anything like that. I've always felt like I should try to be a good person in general and to try to stay away from being "wrong" (not to say that I'm perfect, because there are so many things that I've done that are just awful, I'm human). I just finished my first semester of college, and I've learned so much from it. I left my home, state, friends, and family, to go to a college seven hours away from my home. One of the reasons I left my home was because I felt that so many of the people around me just didn't really care about their futures. Well, in this completely new place, and state, I've noticed a lot of the same thing. There are so many people I've met who just don't care about being a good person or trying to be nice. I mean there are people I've run into who have tried to start fights with me for literally no reason at all. I've overheard conversations of men talking about women like they're just tools for guys. I've seen people literally hurt other people for what can't even be considered "reasons", their so stupid.
What I'm trying to get to is, I don't understand why people feel the need to be angry, or better yet, reluctant to be honest. Many people have told me on different occasions that they don't need to be moral because they don't have a religion. That is literally the most pathetic thing I've ever heard. You don't need to be religious to be a good person!! If the word "morality" really scares you that much, how about the word "helpful"? People seem to constantly be attacking others, fighting only for their selves and those in their little groups. Why in the world is it such a terrible thing to try and be a good person? I don't understand at all why being "good" has such a bad stigma attached to it. How can you honestly say you want to be a bad person? Why?! Why in the world do some people want to be bad people?! We live in a world with so much struggle in it, why add to that struggle? Now the people I am talking about, to be clear, are people who, socially and monetary class-wise, are pretty well-off. If money and social activity is not an issue for you, what possible right do you have to go out of your way to be a bad person? It makes absolutely no sense. People literally question me as to why I care so much about others being good people! I really don't know how to respond to something like that. Why do I wish all people were good people? Why is that a weird or bad thing to wish?! Yes, I do wish more people were more moral because that would make the world a better place!
I don't want to be thought of as a person who hates the world or anything, however. I know there are many good people out there. There are so many people who, everyday, do their absolute best to avoid anger and face their issues with the actual smart solution. These people go largely unnoticed though. This makes sense, however. A person who sincerely wants to be good, would never gloat about that, and shouldn't. It just seems to me, that those who purposefully don't want to care about the people around them, or life in general, actually go out of their way to make the local word around them harder. I just don't see the need or desire to try and hurt people. It's just ridiculous.
And So it Begins...
I feel like I've been very stressed the past couple of years. I've tried different outlets, but none have worked so well. In an effort to expel my stress, I've decided to try typing away my problems. This could be a solid outlet for my thoughts, feelings, etc. If not, oh well. There are no set blog times, or special events. I'm just going to type what I want, when I want. It could be about my life, life in general or really just about anything at all. I may review some games or movies on here as well. It's literally just whatever. So... let's do it to it!
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